Time proved to us that we had achieved success. We found the kind of place that you dread leaving. Where that last day starts with a quiet ache and as other people leave, a somber tone increasingly takes over. When afternoon breaks taken from the bustle of packing and cleaning, have a sad coating. Where your mind reflects on the latest stay, dips into the past memories and shuffles them all together. You start to sneak looks forward, plotting the next escape. Sarrah had a somber demeanor as she watched the ritualistic events of the last day; she quickly recognized the patterns and knew that the trip was near its end. You know it is good, when it hurts to leave.
To me a big part of this day is the last walk; Every trip has a last walk, to the beach. Preferably as close to departure back to reality, as possible. Usually, taken after most people have gone, giving way to greater observation in solitude. Along the way small things seem different. The weathered chairs of wood, quietly stare back at you, as if waiting. Shuttered empty houses look lonelier. Even the sea birds seem a little forlorn.
Somehow the ocean sounds different, on the last walk. The constant roar sounds more like a lonely, resonating hollow moan as if to be saying, “Don’t go…”, maybe “Farewell…”, or perhaps “Happy Trails…”. I feel and absorb this more every ‘Last Time’. On these walks, the ocean smells more like a salty tear soaked kiss. I occasionally wonder… Does the ocean miss us when we are gone? Will it miss me, after I have gone?
In the joy killing spirit of ‘Tomorrow is promised to No One’ you never know when the actual last walk, may be. I do not allow myself to dwell on this heavy finality, too much. But I do make an extra effort to savor all moments… of each, last one.